墨菲不是定律，是魔咒

上帝终于爆破了那个定时炸弹。上帝这个老头，怎么跟我一样倔呢？

我们这些愚蠢的地球人啊。

我需要比惨，来让自己好过一点。这唯一的坏处是，找不到比我惨的怎么办？

生活，总有些悲痛，无法靠自欺欺人来拯救，比如人死了，比如梦碎了。

I don't need any sympathy but empathy.

Don't let me down.

I talked to the person who made me mad and fortunately, before and after that, I was chatting with an old friend and a new friend who really made me feel better.

Somehow, I always been involved in the mood of up and down. And of course, losing all the faith and confidence overnight. Where am I now? What I'm saying, doing and thinking go differently. After that, kind of insanity comes to annoying me with no doubt. It suppose to be a big problem with which I've been worked on. That's awful, u know.

Here comes the way. Meeting new things and new people. U can't believe how easy it is to have a good impression on a new friend. So relaxing~ Honestly, I've met great numerous new people in this half of year who actually made up for the loneliness. However, maybe the loneliness I never aware of.

U will see, a new friend hardly let you down. I love all my old friends but the heart is too fragile to hold any hurt from them.

If u ask me what's the biggest thing I harvested since this 6 months, I would say. PPL.
If u ask me what's the biggest awareness I had since this 6 months, I would say, I come to realize how strong and how fragile I could be.

Leaving to Berlin, Barcelona and Lisbon for 8 days. I definately konw that u will not miss me. Well, who cares?

学不乖

总算可以定心地安排旅行计划时，发现时间和空间的交错节点被放在了一个很有意思的位置上。
时间的转移，带动地点的转移，加上同伴的转移，种种转移却要求一致的契合。所谓，天时地利人合。
今日风云突变，被上下来回震荡了几下，现在低谷中。

我为什么就是学不乖呢？

计划会害人，因为我们不会习惯计划坏事。我被乐观害死了。
计划落空远比没有计划更伤人。这是废话。

我真的有点难过唉。仁慈一点，就不要问我为什么了，好吗？

It means to be……

unavailable

我的旅行计划出了问题，虽然我可能可以在欧洲呆到八月。不要骂我怎么这么不恋家，我是个非常矛盾的人，不想回来，却不能接受失去联络。

所谓人性本贱嘛，最联络不便的朋友是我最挂念的，最不可能的事情是我最热衷的。

当一切有点杂乱无章的时候，是有些无助的。恨自己不够洒脱，做不到抓紧一切时间，用掉每一分钱地狠玩，性格吧。我总是顾虑很多，怎么办？

我跟南南说，当我觉得找不到人的时候是最最难受的时候。南南说，当发出讯号而没有回音的时候，更难受。
我不发出讯号，不愿打扰，坚定地和失望作战，等着两败俱伤。
Which one do u prefer to be, unavailable or invisible?

Please ignore this essay if u don't understand it at all.

Most of my neighbours went home for Easter holiday so that the corridor became very quiet this week. I can't deny that I feel a little bit homesick in such special environment or you can define it as a sense of loneliness. How can I let u know that I even have less interesting in travel cause it means nothing to me without any good friends.

However, I have to admit that I might hurt some guys today even if I can't help to do so. What if I say yes? I reluctant to lie to those guys I do care for. The worse thing to lie is a bad liar. Nobody can lose the power to face himself, the truth gonna hurts our hearts though.

FRIENDS-an excuse or a chance? An excuse to refusing or a chance to developing. To me, "friends" is a joke. A big joke played by God. He convince me to those perfect but impossible affection. Hopelessness kills me every time when I think of the joke.

A wonderful insurance company ad says, our strategy to future is to make sure there is a future. You are free to laugh at me for the sorrow, which i also sneer at myself from the bottom of my heart.